August 1st

Well this may seem like a strange title for a blog entry but to me it is both exciting and nerve-wracking at the same time. It's a long story how we got to this point and you will hear about it in an upcoming episode but August 1st is the date by which i will have made my first appointment to start ERP! Yes, you heard me right, i have a deadline of August 1st to have my first ERP therapy session scheduled. We learned a lot about ERP at the OCD Texas conference we went to last weekend but the most important thing we learned is the two of the therapists that specialize in ERP and go to the quarterly conferences so ERP over Skype! Whatever will they think of next? Since both of them live in big cities that are hours away from us it is good to know that it is possible to work with an ocd expert even if you live in a small town. So that's is, that's the big news, i think i might go and vomit know it makes me so nervous thinking about it :) In all seriousness though i know this is a big step and i am slowly but surely coming to grips with the fact that it is MY next big step. I am ready for anything at this point, i'm tired of fighting and i'm tired of this damn OCD that remains, time to surgically remove my Siamese twin!